Rambling

I am having one of those nights. I am finally loving my life and living it the way I want to but today I am knocked down some. Today for some reason I still feel empty and hollow. Alone. Very alone. Sitting in the livingroom with my roommate and best friend, all I want to do is cuddle but know that is out of his comfort zone and something we can't do anymore. I have reached out to the other men in my life and am still waiting for any kind of response from all of them. When will I find someone true? Now that I am doing what I want with my life...when will I start to focus on myself? I want to feel loved both self love and the love of a man.