Lame or responsible?

Here I am sitting at Barnes and Noble. It's 9:15pm on a Saturday. I came here because I told myself I had to sit and work because I have so much to do. I've been here almost two hours now and have yet to accomplish anything other than getting caught up on the latest edition of Elle Magazine and surfing the web. When weighing the options to go to the bar and see my current crush or coming to Barnes and Noble...I chose the later.

Sometimes I wonder what I am doing with myself. I am 32 years old and I still feel like I am waiting for my life to begin. And at the same time I kind of feel like I am purposely putting my life on hold.....why am I not at the bar right now chatting with the cute boy?........