It's been a long and exhausting week and somehow I find myself sitting in the office for 7 hours on a Saturday. Maybe its because I am exhausted that I can't stop my mind from being flooded with memories while listening to my iTunes. Normally I do my best to push those memories out of my head each time they try to creep back in. Tonight I surrender.
There is the song that takes me back to a night with my first serious boyfriend. Just him and I laying in bed, looking out the window at the snow falling...him whispering in my ear and then a second later we erupt into an all out tickle war which was just his way of wrestling with me and getting me to have sex with him again. I was so naive. I thought I was so in love. Regardless, I was happy in that moment.
Then there is the song that a different ex used to sing karaoke to. The first time I heard him sing that song on stage in the bar....I wet myself. There is still nothing that can turn me on more than hearing him sing that song. It brings me back to that night with him and his friends in the bar. For some reason the two moments that stick out the most from that night are him singing and then him sitting on the stairs out back and me sneaking a kiss or two from him when his friends weren't around. We weren't dating at the time but thinking about that now....why did I feel like I had to hide the fact that we were "unofficially together"? I was nervous. I was happy. I was falling for him. Hard.
There is the song that a recent fling sang to me that made my heart race.
The one that I listened to as I sat on my porch and cried.
The one that "his" best friend sang the same night I heard him sing for the first time.
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