Some may say I am a dreamer

I have always had big dreams and impossible wishes. Always wanting the things I can't or don't currently have. Never really happy with what I do have in my life, I am forever searching for the day, moment, thing or person that will make me feel content with my life. It seems impossible, it just very might be that I will always be someone who is never really content or happy with anything for too long. I don't necessarily see this as a bad thing, maybe one day my inability to be "content" will be what gives me the edge in my career. Or maybe it will push me into a completely different career that ends up being my happily ever after....career wise that is.
There are days when I stop to really soak in everything around me and I honestly think about how lucky I really am. Then there are days when I curl up under my covers in bed and just cry. I can't even really explain why I cry sometimes. There is just this feeling that something is missing or that I am missing out on something or someone.
A good friend of mine narrowly escaped death about a year ago. She was one of the passengers that went down in the Hudson River plane crash. Before that crash she was a typical workaholic. Staying at the office until midnight or later, sometimes not sleeping at all because there was just too much work to get done. So stressed out and overworked that all it took was looking at her to make her burst into tears. And now a year after that horrible day where she almost lost her life....she is finally LIVING. She works no later then 6pm, she travels alot and is actually currently on a 10 day cruise of the carribean. And at 31 years old she finally let love in. She got to know and has now fallen in love with a man that was also on that flight while at a survivors get together a few months after the incident. During one interview, Laura's boyfriend was quoted saying

"We've lived, laughed, danced and loved like two people who know tomorrow isn't guaranteed."

Why is it that a near death experience is what it takes for a person to decide to wake up and actually enjoy your life a bit? I read that quote at least once a day now and it just helps me realize that I need to stop worrying so much over tomorrow or one, ten or twenty years from now because it's robbing me of today and today could just be the day that I find my passion in life or fall in love with my soulmate. Today might be the day....it just might.